The Storyteller’s Evolving Mind: A Glimpse into a Year of Writing “Dear Darling” Short Film

What is one to do when you are not enough? I always wanted to bite a dog. Fight a storm, bribe my God or find a soul. The heart of an ambitious man is one that can’t be trifled with. But what happens when said heart turns upon itself. An ouroboros-like fate twisted into its own destiny. You can’t stand your own scent, your own tastes or gaze. A mirror only reflects what you never expect to see.

It’s no secret that I wrote dear Darling at a low point in life. At the start,  it was a letter to a beloved. My passion had turned cold and I wouldn’t describe myself as bold at the time. I wondered why they had left, what I’d done wrong, what I could have done differently.  All questions that served as a source of pain I only lurched onto. Why was I not enough?

At the start of this journey, Archie served as the focal point through which I looked at the world. I could feel him inside of me.  The anger, the hopelessness, the desire to all make it stop. A wretched  bundle of emotions that only weighed more with the day. Any distraction was welcome to the party until it hurt so bad that I found a way to love it.

The emotional wound had healed with time to form a raw scar. One that I poked on occasion to remind myself that I too can still feel alive. A certain pleasure in the chaos of pain. I’d like to think that that is how Darling came to fruition.  The anger was fuel for a dull day, hopelessness was a shield against any more heartbreak, my desire to see the end was proof of my existence. The world was on fire and I was focused on the beauty of the flame. The chaos soothed me. Warmed the cold off my skin and turned all aches into a faint buzz. I loved it.

I guess this is one of the pleasures of writing a short film over the course of 12 months. The mind of the storyteller is constantly evolving with the script.

Written by

Mugabe Victor

Follow

Did this story move you? Every gift goes directly to Mugabe Victor — writers on Muwado earn from reader appreciation, not algorithms. Even $1 makes a difference.

Gift Once Gift Monthly