On Sickness and A Good God; When the Body Goes Rogue

I never imagined how much a broken body might be the thing that does one in…

I should have…after all, that was Job’s last straw…

“Skin for skin!” Satan replied. “A man will give all he has for his own life. But now stretch out your hand and strike his flesh and bones, and he will surely curse you to your face.”

– Job 2:4‭-‬5 NIV

Paul, the Apostle,  also pleaded with God to take that thorn in his flesh away (2 Corin.12:7) ..

I feel tired. I am tired.  Really tired. Tired of this physical pain. Tired of the mental anguish that accompanies it. Tired. Tired. Tired.

I know (with absolute certainty) that God is able to take it away. His Omnipotent after all. Yet, He chooses not to. Not yet anyway. Bambi you better believe that I believe… how could I not?! I am desperate for relief! And the mustard seed surely accounts for my faith too. Thankfully, I know it’s about who I believe and not how much faith I have.

I really don’t know what God is up to, why He’s taking His time. Well, it’s His to take. But I am thankful that I am still fully persuaded that He is a good good Father (for riyo-  faith is a gift 😅) .  Even in my despair. He remains good. The Constant.

Maybe this is what Paul meant when He said to,

give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

– 1 Thessalonians 5:18 NIV

The giving thanks… in (read – amidst, whilst, during, when) NOT, for  (read – because)  – minding prepositions!

I love knowing but I don’t see the big picture. Maybe I have a glimpse…🤔 God is my Big Picture. I know He is doing something in me.. for His glory.  May I be found faithful 🙏🏾. May He truly show (off) His strength in my weakness.

Naye bambi, I am truly homesick… I long for the new… for the restored…for the reset, for the whole!!

‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. ”

– Revelation 21:4 NIV

Maybe the longing is a blessing too?! 🤷🏾‍♀️What if being done in, and at the end of oneself is the blessing??!

Webare Yesu…for holding me fast!

For being – Immanuel 👑