Julian M. Marembo
Forgive me Father for I have sinned. I have fallen so deeply in love that I have lost all sight and thought of my Salvation. I have broken your Holy commandment, “Love the Lord your God, with all your heart, with all your soul and mind” All this I have done for another… a human… a man.
With all my heart, I love him. A moment without him and I am lost, like a lamb in the desert, only longing to be with him again. My love for him is all-consuming; not gentle and warm… but wild and unforgiving. And I’d have it no other way. I feel alive… ecstatic, enraged, and lonely and on the brink of madness.
With all my mind, I adore him. I pray for him more than I pray for the Salvation of the world. In my eyes, he can do no wrong. Every word he says is gold. I remember each word, replay his voice in my mind looking for signs of his love for me. Every waking moment, I think about him… Hoping that he is thinking of me too. My ambition for him has surpassed all else. I have offered my mind to him. My soul has been compromised.
I pray Father that you restore my sight. Give me the grace to see him as he is, like a human being, capable of evil and sinful. This way, my desire will be quenched. Otherwise my fate is sealed and my heart will be broken beyond repair. I can’t last long in his fire. Lord, rescue me.
Julian Marembo
