It was in your eyes.
Your big brown intelligent eyes
And the way they looked at me that August night
It was the first time I saw you. It was Arinda’s birthday party
You were the birthday boy (Arinda’s boyfriend) and I was the best friend
But we could not stop staring at each other; no matter how much we tried to!
It was your words
Your sweet witty words
It was your words that enchanted me
The mix of humor and eloquence that laid a road map to your soul and had me falling hard so first even when I didn’t mean to
Because when I saw you again two weeks later
You were picking Arinda from my place for a movie night
I opened the door for you.
You looked at me
I looked at you
“I would like to take you out on a date sometime” you whispered
“Are you really that type of guy?” I laughed
“I will be that type guy if it means that I get to take you out” you said
It was your touch, your arms, your shoulders
And the way I felt every time you had your arms around me
I remember the first time we were together alone
You said you had to drop a couple of things Arinda had left at your place
So I let you into our apartment.
We stood looking at each other
You took one step towards me, I said “Don’t”
You said all you wanted to do was hold me in your arms
So I let you! You put your arms around me.
You breathed down my neck.
I lived! You kissed me
I died because in your arms, I was betraying my best friend.
I lived because in your arms; in your big beautiful arms, my body felt things I never thought it was capable of feeling.