Hurts Like HELL!

Whew! Hi. In all my writing this has to be my hardest piece. It comes from a place of uttermost vulnerability, pain & hurt. Tuesday, the 31st of October, will be one for the books. It’s currently 3:25pm, November 1st and I’ve cried a lot today. In the matatu from home to a meeting I cried. In the CBD, I cried. In the meeting I had today, I cried too. Thankfully, the guy I had a meeting with had noticed my red swollen eyes and scrapped the agenda off and insisted that I share what was bugging me. He could tell. He is much older, and having interacted in a few work conferences and forums, he somewhat knows my personality.  But, today he noticed something was different. Being one, who rarely opens up, it took some persuasion and I did tell him. The minute I started, the tears kept balling out. He listened. He gave me advice that I felt I needed. Well, what I caught, happened to be a piece of advice I’ll keep forever. I was impressed that there’s still humanity in some of us. I needed that outburst. 

I guess I’m different from a lot of humans and that difference that sets me apart, is what gets me hurt the most.