Dear Unity

I know I have been very hard, harsh, disrespectful, unappreciative, disloyal, unloving and not good to you at all through the years. I thought to be strong and to show no emotion or pain was to make it in life, or what it takes to get you far in life.

I always tried to make you smaller, unnoticeable and invisible for everyone to like and love you, but instead I made you lose your true self and your own voice of reasoning. I entrusted you to so many wrong and misleading beliefs about life, love, relationships, family and religion. I always tried to make you out as a bad person to make others feel good about themselves, so others could take your shine but, was it worth it at the end of the day?

I made you suppress your true potential as I felt it wasn’t good enough for society, thus creating years of unnecessary uncertainty and doubt. I wished I loved you more, hugged you more and trusted you more when you were younger. I wished you had known from a younger age how powerful, lovable and how much creativity you had within you to unlock your full potential.

I wish you could have spoken up sooner about the abuse you had suffered from many people’s hands, it would have made the healing process so much easier and would have given you a jump start to loving and embracing yourself.

Your strained relationship with your mother when you were younger just meant that she was also going through a lot and was trying to protect you from not making the same mistakes as herself. It was never because she never loved or did not like you but rather to guide you. I know this broke and hurt you a lot as you always felt left out, misunderstood or like an outsider, causing you to hate yourself most of your younger years.

You were so afraid and confused trying to blend in with so many people whose energies never matched yours. Keeping up appearances was a norm for you but this left you so drained and more confused than ever.

I am so happy you have started stepping back from many people and things that have always drained or felt like a burden to you. You have started reflecting and re-learning who you were supposed to be. You have started appreciating yourself, loving how you think and your choices so much more than before now. I love how you have started investing in yourself mentally, spiritually and physically again.

You are learning to let go of the pain, trauma, heartache and baggage of your younger years which is a step in the right direction. Only realising now that it takes one step at a time to better yourself and appreciate every small accomplishment you have achieved so far. It does not mean you’re late but rather growing as your learning.

Unity, you are not in a race with anyone or anything but yourself. It is okay to still feel lost and to not have made it in life, as long as you’re taking care of you.

I am so proud of you Unity! If given the chance I will shout it out on top of roof tops of just how proud I am of you and of who you are becoming.  You’ve got this my girl.

You are special, beautiful, unique, liquid gold, intelligent, brilliant and you’ve got so much more to live for. Everything that has happened to you, everything you have gone through life has made you stronger, wiser and is moulding you into greatness. Stop doubting yourself and know that you are capable of doing anything you put your mind to.

Put God and yourself first always! Go out and have more fun, learn new things even if you have never done it before that is the beauty of life you learn as you go. Be bold and creative in every stride you take this is your journey. Not everyone will like you or be for you but that’s okay, if we were all friends in life how would that have shaped our personalities and character. Remember there is only one of you Unity so embrace it. Life is a school and everyday there is a new lesson to have.

Take care and love you always.

From Unity to Unity